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Eeyore 18/10/02(Tue)10:21 No. 5906 ID: b1f1f1 [Reply]
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What is something that seems to be slipping away?

For me, it ought to be urgency. I'm lost between oversleeping and having tireless bloodshot eyes. When I go beyond 48 hours without rest, life is blown out of perspective. It's already so pointless to drag myself through all the same motions everyday.


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Eeyore 22/01/17(Mon)21:15 No. 6739 ID: 182caf

>>6192
Have you ever been at wizchan? You smell like wizard


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Eeyore 22/02/13(Sun)07:03 No. 6744 ID: 107aae

>>6739
Not the guy you're talking to, but you reminded me about wizchan. Thanks.


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Eeyore 22/02/17(Thu)16:44 No. 6746 ID: 273d68

>>6744
that's not a good thing :/




Eeyore 21/06/18(Fri)00:00 No. 6660 ID: 96fcaa [Reply]
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I went through an old yearbook last weekend and what immediately jumped out is that the two people from our (sixth grade) class that are dead were right next to each other.

The first one was a problem child who apparently got pregnant at 12 and was murdered by her super religious grandmother by keeping her out late and pulling in front of a train on the way home as she was asleep in the back seat.

The second one was raped in school by a little glass eyed sociopath and that sent her on a downward spiral that ended with her addicted to drugs, murdered by a Mexican and thrown naked in a ditch.

On a lighter coincidence, my oldest son's mom and I were also next to each other on the same page of the yearbook


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Eeyore 22/01/17(Mon)19:49 No. 6724 ID: 182caf

to me all of them are just like robots doing nothing, for nothing in the middle of nothingness and to it shall they return.

I once used to imagine that people around me were just holograms, and some light of such thoughts still lives inside me.


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Eeyore 22/02/07(Mon)00:03 No. 6742 ID: ff3844

>>6724

No doubt, they think the same about you.


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Eeyore 22/02/14(Mon)16:18 No. 6745 ID: 740106

One lad, I was in biology and chemistry with in high school, got stab through the heart with screw driver less than three months after leave school over a girl.

Shame he was okay.

I haven't really kept up with anyone from my year or school. I know few and their doing ok on the whole.




Eeyore 20/02/05(Wed)03:52 No. 6359 ID: 54c56d [Reply]
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so I got promoted at my job and now I'm a phone salesman. today I got the calls' script and I was told to listen to my coworkers so I can pick up their conversation lines. that's no problem, but the thing is, I got scared, and it showed. I became very quiet through the work day and sat all hunched over
dealing with people is not my strong suit, but I've been asking for an opportunity to harden up to the things I fear or don't like, and now it came, sadly I'm just out of the loop
all I can do right now is pray for strength and courage


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Eeyore 20/02/05(Wed)12:44 No. 6361 ID: 9f02ee

>>6360
>Put on your white voice, op.

>>6359
Like Dr Dre and Eminem
Just imagine that everyone else in the building is
Puff Daddy
and you're Dr Dre or Eminem
Quote Sun Tzu at people
act like you're bigger than Prince (Formerly known as the Artiste'"


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Eeyore 20/02/05(Wed)23:37 No. 6363 ID: 54c56d
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>>6360
>>6361
I think I may have made a big deal about it. it still makes me anxious as hell, but I could more or less follow the script and I didn't stutter or anything like that
the supervisor that vouched for me to get into the position congratulated me and all. now I just have to manage my nerves and my posture and we're all set
my neck hurts like hell


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Eeyore 22/01/17(Mon)21:06 No. 6735 ID: 182caf

you better get some course about gardening. Stop wasting yourself, stop doing things the hard way




Eeyore 14/09/05(Fri)17:14 No. 3737 ID: 591d42 [Reply]
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How do i hide with my facial expressions that i am sad or is in a state of anxiety?


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Eeyore 20/04/23(Thu)09:59 No. 6443 ID: 72d4d3

The secret is disdain. Disdain for the worthless sad filth that are human beings. Go kick over an anthill and watch the ants scurry around as their pathetic little lives are so violently disrupted. Realize what kind of look you have on your face. A quiet disdain. Visually, it's mostly a neutral look, but a little downcast; you're simultaneously looking downward as if in condescension, and looking downward as if in depression. Because it's both sad and pathetic; no matter their struggles, they're just stupid fucking ants.

Do that all the time. Anytime you see someone else, have that feeling and you'll have that look. Realize how pathetic and depressing their lives and their struggles, and yet how they still try so hard to accomplish nothing at all. You can feel superior to them, not because you are better in any way, but because you've at least realized this truth, while they continue to believe in such maudlin propaganda nonsense like the value of hard work, meritocracy, karma, and destiny.

In my experience, this look tends to have one of two effects on people. Either they see it as smug superiority and therefore respect you, or they see it as dangerous instability and therefore fear you; and in either case this is subconscious behavior, the only result is that they do whatever you want. After all, the rich businessman and the serial killer are both the exact same type of sociopath; the only difference is their execution.


I feel I completely mastered this the other day when I went shopping for groceries. My country suddenly (and, might I add, several months LATE) decided to implement rules that everyone has to wear masks in public. I had not heard of this, so I was literally the only person not wearing one. And I really felt that disdain, more than ever. I felt like walking up to every single one of them, patting them on the head and saying, "It's okay. Don't worry. This isn't something like the Black Plague. Your pitiful little species won't go extinct." I have to imagine half of the people who saw me thought I was somehow so above the rules that I didn't have to do what they did; the other half thought I was so crazy that I was deliberately trying to infect them. I was a criminal, definitely, but nobody was sure whether I was Batman or The Joker. Either way, the result was the same. Nobody called me out. Nobody asked why I wasn't following the directives. Nobody told me "you can't do that".

I accomplished what I meant to do with no difficulty, and nobody got in my way except for the people who were required to do things for me, and they did so unquestioningly. This is the secret to everything in life. If you have that same attitude, it doesn't matter if you're telling someone to bag your fucking groceries or sign the fucking papers; they will do it. Because you look like you're greater Message too long. Click here to view the full text.


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DO. NOT. Eeyore 22/01/17(Mon)20:40 No. 6731 ID: 182caf

Instead of that, let the consequences (of not doing so) fear you instead of you being afraid. Or rather embrace them.

Why in the world are you hiding? Is someone out there scaring you? Stop giving excuses. Be as your heart needs need you to be. Hide your power, not your misery. Destroy incoming predators instead of preventing them.

>At least that's what I used to do


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Eeyore 22/01/17(Mon)20:42 No. 6732 ID: 182caf

>>6443
>not fearing karma
This is not about what we may chase, but about what we run away from. When you taste real issues, you are in a hurry.




Eeyore 20/09/28(Mon)05:19 No. 6539 ID: b42dc4 [Reply]
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everythings fine. great, even. it appears i do have some social skills and put them to work just fine

then why do i feel so doubtful and despairing all the time? why do i feel sluggish and backwards when i compare myself to others? why do i feel like ive been left aside from important or enjoyable moments because of just being me? why do i feel encased in ice, trapped in time and unable to catch up with everyones rythm?

every been to a party? for those who have, id probably know how we would spend time at it: awkwardly holding a glass of soda in a corner while looking at our feet. thats what id do anyways. thats how id feel anyways. thats the feeling that chases me to this very day, at any moment. at home. outside. alone. with other people
me; stunted by rave lights and ear-shattering music like a deer surprised by a car's headlights watching everyone have fun and be better


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Eeyore 20/09/30(Wed)22:32 No. 6540 ID: b83bb7
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It's because life is pain, OP. Life is inherently alienating and painful by its very nature. And no matter how close we get to experiencing understanding and acceptance of other people. At the end of the day the only thing we, truly, have is ourselves. No one can ever, truly, understand you, but, you. That's what you are feeling. That emptyness, that isolation, no matter what you do. it's because you are constantly trying to, truly, connect, but, the human condition makes this an impossibility.
TL;DR, You are alone.


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Then listen to it, instead of running away from it Eeyore 22/01/17(Mon)20:33 No. 6729 ID: 182caf
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>why do i feel like ive been left aside from important or enjoyable moments because of just being me?
You were not being you totally, but X thing of others.
>why do i feel encased in ice, trapped in time and unable to catch up with everyones rythm?
Because going towards others rhythm instead of yours is unnatural and unhealthy. Or is it that they answer back adapting also to yourself? Of course not. You're selling your soul to the expectations of the world, which deserves nothing.
>every been to a party? for those who have, id probably know how we would spend time at it: awkwardly holding a glass of soda in a corner while looking at our feet.
Why do you spend yourself trying to adapt to this world? Don't answer to me! No answer would ever serve as reason enough to such outrage. IF we go to a party for 2 things only: have your meal there and then go away. Stop chasing this world! You are going to be left apart anyways and also hollow for doing so.
>everyone has fun and is better
Or they just pretend to be so. If they do not asume you, why are you there trying to amuse everyone? The standard of the world judges you according to what you put in for it. Answer back judging reversally, and think about the world according to its deeds, never its promises.

Don't play music for those who do not even sing for you. Chase yourself. Dig into your void. You have been letting the world to alienate yourself all this time... listen to your feelings and give away this ridiculous entreprise of being whom you are not, chasing thankless passions, thankless desires.




Eeyore 20/10/20(Tue)11:53 No. 6547 ID: 96267a [Reply]
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I have lost all joy in life I can barely enjoy anything in life anymore Nd its only going to get worse with age.I live in mental,physical and emotional agony nearly daily.I am really small,weak and useless person.one day im going to kill myself and no one will come to family because im to sperged out to socalize.I'm a neet that can't work I want to die and it might be my only option.I had so much hope and ambition,it's all gone.


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Eeyore 20/10/25(Sun)01:50 No. 6549 ID: b83bb7

Drink up, OP. Life is fleeting. It's your choice.


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Sick bodies, sick minds Eeyore 22/01/17(Mon)19:56 No. 6727 ID: 182caf
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Go to wizchan, then ask for the warpwiz.




Anyone else living in their own dreamland? Eeyore 21/01/13(Wed)18:51 No. 6584 ID: e0db60 [Reply]
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I feel disconnected from the real world, and I have felt that way for a long time. It got worse after I dropped out of school due to bullying, at least then I could pretend that I was doing something for myself by following the rules and hoping that it would pay off. Now I don't really do anything, I don't have anyone, and I mostly just spend my days rotting in bed. All I do is think. My brain is pretty much the only part of me that still feels like it is mine, so I live in it. Sometimes I stay the entire day in bed, without eating or drinking anything. Just thinking, imagining, fantasizing. I feel like a brain stuck inside a rotting corpse. But my brain also is no longer the way it used to be. I feel like I'm worthless now. I used to be very smart, but now I just feel like I'm a retarded piece of trash. I can't even think right anymore.
Today I had an amazing dream in which the man I love let me fall asleep in his arms. It felt more real than whatever the hell is happening now that I'm awake.
Is anyone else experiencing this? This disconnection from what people call reality? I feel like I've lost my mind. I don't really know what's real or not anymore. Is this really all there is? Is this what I'm living for? It doesn't feel right.
Sometimes I think that the people around me are not real. They're puppets. They've been put here to stop me from escaping this world. I've been put here so whoever is in control of this place can study my reactions to whatever they choose to put in my path, like I'm a lab rat. I've considered killing myself just to escape this. I feel like I'm being watched. I don't feel like this is real. I'm scared. There's a lot of noise outside and it makes my head hurt.
I know this is just a stupid wall of text, a dumb blogpost, a pointless word soup that makes no fucking sense whatsoever, but like I said, I'm retarded now. I can't write coherently anymore, which is a pity, since I used to want to be a writer. I really don't know what happened to me.


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Eeyore 21/02/18(Thu)01:59 No. 6609 ID: 0943c2

I've been there before. It eventually stopped. Not really sure how, but it did.


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To have something you never had Eeyore 22/01/17(Mon)19:54 No. 6726 ID: 182caf
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https://www.verywellmind.com/holotropic-breathwork-4175431




Dedw8!BipOSSUm.6 21/11/20(Sat)06:55 No. 6708 ID: 636df5 [Reply]
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You tried to fill the void.

The voices echo too much in it.

So you put pen to paper, or fingers to keyboard. You upload your work. Someone tells you they like your stuff.

You start to believe it.

You get a comission, and the promise of another one. Against your nature, you complete the commission, and deliver a nearly-finished sample.
You never hear from the commissioner again.
The second commisioner blocks you everywhere.

You wonder if it was because it was too expensive. Then you think your skill level wasn't enough for what you charged. You check your website for positive reaffirmation, and see the followers have dwindled.
You realize nobody wants your shit, not even for free. The void grows bigger and eats your work, which nobody will see anymore. Not that they'll miss it, you think.

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Eeyore 22/01/17(Mon)19:47 No. 6723 ID: 182caf

Why in the world are you not applying for other things?
The void is already filled with you, and it's not healthy as we can judge by your words.

Never wageslave in a same place for too much.




Pika Cheak-ie-o 22/01/15(Sat)02:26 No. 6721 ID: 3c9344 [Reply]
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Tika





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