>>5035
to be satisfied with what i have and have enough to be satisfied.

>>5035
I want it all to end. Everything.

Pain killers, lots of them.

>>5044
absolute ruin

>>5035
A fulfilled life. To define this, I would say that would mean I would positively influence someone else's life. Hopefully more than one. I want someone to look at me as an inspiring person. I want to be inspiring by struggling, bleeding, sweating, beating myself up, but no one would know but me. In average day to day situations, you can't exactly prove yourself to be inspiring, so I'm pursuing a military career. Once I'm done with college, I'm enlisting into the Marine Corp as a riflemen. After, if all my hard work pays off, I'll become a member of the special forces. Even if I don't become MARSOC, I' m sure I prove myself.

Heroin would be nice, just enough to kill me though. I would want to waste any by taking too much because then the next guy might not overdose. Even in my suicide, I shall remain thoughtful

>>5035
A maximum eight hour workday, preferably sitting alone and doing some simple shit and my own small house outside of town, near the woods where I can spend my free time alone.

>>5035

Full communism.

To no longer remember anything.

>>5096
try benzos. lots of them

I want death

I've wanted to die for a few years now, but I set one key guideline: I can't inflict it myself. I say this because as you die your brain can either shut down instantly or slowly. as your brain shuts down I assume the last things you think and see will carry on towards your death. I don't believe in after life just an everlasting last thought.
I read that before you die that you think of all the important things in your life. I'm sure many of you heard the phrase "life flashing before your eyes" yes, I want that. I want to be shot, hit by a car or fall over from heart attack and feel a final rush of animal instinct.
I jay walk, go through rough neighborhoods and try to be a hero trying to increase my chances of random death.
I might die a hero, or a victim or even a martyr, but i do not want to die weak I want that to be my secret.

If I cannot get that wish then give me the strength to do it myself,

>>5098
I want death too. I've already lived about a decade waiting for something to kill me, but I am also not actively suicidal. I don't have the guts to make it happen or the will. I'm just sort of looking forward to the prospect that sooner or later I will die and I don't really mind if it's tomorrow or sixty years from now, but I think it's going to be a big relief.

I don't believe in any perpetuation of individual conciousness beyond physical death; not even the experience of everlasting nothingness. I'm satisfied the energy and molecules of my self go on to be other things in the world. Actually, There is one orther thing I'd want related to death--to have my body dropped into the atmosphere from space, so I could be broken down to my base elements and sprinkle them as far over the planet as possible.

i want the pain to stop

>>5035

I want to feel happy, content, driven.

I want to have a meaning.

I want to move forward.

I have it all, job, car, apartmet (that I own), but life is just so empty.
Got up at 3 this morning, drove to a gas station, got 12 beers, drank those, now I'm about to open a bottle of whiskey.

Fucking Hell, what am I doing with my life

-Smoke a few bowls-
"Now I'm ready to wake up"
-Take some pills-
"Now I'm ready for work (school) 'Responsibility'"
-Knives on skin-
"Now I can finally relax again"
-Take a few shots-
"Now I'm ready to go to bed"

'Normal' is no longer tolerable.
I desire substance.

But most of all, I desire a friend who I can build a nest in.
Comfort. Sleep. Food.
To feel wanted by one other person who would do anything.
To feel important.
To feel like I can love myself.

A life worth living.

Unlike this one I have now, with a broken, despair-lined soul residing inside a cocoon from which there seem not to be an exit.

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>>5181

That reminds me of a poem by Shel Silverstein (pic related).

>>5182
The only difference is that my cocoon is neither safe nor warm.

It is the place full of misery and coldness.

Right now I wish someone would tuck me in and stroke my head until I fall asleep, and then never wake me again.

The closest I will ever get to this is letting a bullet smear my brains all over my bedroom.

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>>5035
In the very least a hole for my body to be buried in.

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>>5098
>I don't believe in after life just an everlasting last thought
I've thought about this possibility a lot, and I'm not sure how I feel about it. It could be a still eternity of agony, or maybe happiness. Is it better or worse than nothing?

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to die at the age of 101 and rise again

>>5035
To forget.

to go back in time and do everything over again so i can do it all right

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>>5044
>>5047
Yes, the end.
The very end of it all.
An end to erase even the memories and echoes of all that came. An end no one could ever speak of.

>>5035
for there to be nothing after death

Things I know I can never have.

A world without change. A timeless stagnant place where every day is the same as the next

>>5035
rebirth

>>5035
I only desire to leave West Virginia and never come back.

Power, freedom, and probably for everything to end, but I'm not sure yet because I don't know everything.

I want to understand everything.

Death

>>5152
hah, we're the same. too bad such people don't exist.

I wish I could truly love my self, too.

I want my heart back.
I don't recognize the creature I've become.
It's too late to even kill myself now, it would have been okay if I had some few years back, I have to live and somehow fix it.

i want to be pure and innocent again
i feel so dirty and like my body and mind are corrupted sacks of shit that have lost every kind of virginity there is
i want to be clean and pure and untouched
i hate myself so much
and i dont know how to change
i also dont have any money so i can't get supplies to kill myself with, and I'm too afraid to kill myself by jumping off a building or something
i just want to be cleansed of everything

>>5066
>want someone to look at me as an inspiring person
>enlisting into the Marine Corp
What part of becoming a nameless, faceless serial number do you think anyone will even notice, let alone take inspiration from? You are already a nameless, faceless nobody. Do something original with your life, find a goal of your own to die for, instead of burning your life for the flame of someone else, who will never, ever know your name, your face, or even the fact that you actually lived through decades of existence only to lose it all as an evolutionary misfire.

Freedom.

Even when I think that I myself am the only thing truky preventing me from getting it

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I want to feel peaceful and happy again.
No more unneeded stress and anger in my soul.

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>>5389
I also have this desire. But maybe even if I think I did right, maybe I will want more

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>>5182

to not exist and to have never existed, for "my Self" to un-become into a non-concept

I want to live in a world where I can learn and have fun without being punished and threatened, or having to do things that I don't want to do.

This shit is whack I'm pretty sure existence is supposed to be more lighthearted and meaningful than this.

nothing

the only answer of a true depressive

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>>5490
it isn't a competition

To have friends and have good memories with them. Maybe a good gf too.

I want to be able to live alone and free
I've never been at peace

To be free. To end everything.
But I am too much of a pussy to do so. And I feel it would betray everyone close to me whom I outlived.

Or maybe I just desire having had a normal life. Instead of this train wreck I got.

For my anxiety and depression to be gone. That's all I need. I'll do the rest afterwards.

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To die and have nobody feel sad about me being gone so I can go peacefully.
Here, have a meme that i like. You can remember me by it when I'm gone.

Just like the majority of people here, death,or, to have a new point of view in living, my life is a piece of shit and will continue to worsten as time goes by 'cause I have a boring princip

>>5810
why would you want to be remembered?

I can't stick to one hope or want for very long...
but for some time I have dreamt of living in off the grid in some way. Maybe a small farm plot or something like that.
Got to have a steady job and some cash to get a loan for that. Already got a job, but paying off a loan would take a long time.
I guess I want a better job.
Make more money and faster, perhaps in a more enjoyable and comfortable way than now.
Maybe take a loan and flee abroad and start over like a new person all together. The money would last longer there too, everything's expensive and our currency us going down the drain.

power.

i want to make something better then myself

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how can a man say he truly desires anything when he has no motivation?

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>>5474
it would be funny if it ended with the bird drowning in his own shit

money to buy kpop merchandise. my life is meaningless.

I want an easy life where I don't have to worry for much and I'd have everything I could need or want with me to never feel lonely or miserable and also for those things to be protected.

Instead, I'm poor and miserable with no real future. There might be one thing I can do, but I'm so shit that I can't even put in the time to hopefully make it there.

I know that effort is necessary, but why should I put in that effort when it's so much easier to give up and kill myself? Even if I make it anywhere, I'm sure that those things will leave me and I'd end up alone and bitter again. I've already wasted 10 years of my life doing absolutely nothing, why keep going?

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I desire that the pornographic material become erotic, and the meat-market on 4chan.org become less of a sex-quest mess. I desire that the government & peace-keepers become so effective that they obsolete & retire; I also desire that the warrior's path of weapons be forever honored, that the only wars are in videogames, dramas, or movies, that all that is not good go back in "Pandora's Boxen". & may warmth, peace, & joy flow through this place.

fame.

Freedom. I want to take control of the economy with my peers and achieve freedom.

I already posted here once, hut I might have cancer and I think I'm getting what I fucking deserve, but it's a little slow and I rather be dead now.

Welp, I guess that when I fail I fail LUL

>>6567
If I ever get cancer or some other kind of terminal disease, I'm just going to let it kill me. I want to die, but am too much of a coward to do it by an action. However, doing it via an inaction (refusing to bankrupt my family through medical intervention because lol 'Murica!) is simple. I can't pick up a gun and blow my brains out in order to die; but being able to die by just staying home? Not too hard.

Welber. Meb nebbits.

My one wish is world wide genocides, plagues, famine, violence, rape and overall tragedy for everyone alive. I want it to be known I caused it all to happen. I wish the world would beg for their lives in vain. No sympathy only hesitation for prolonging final thoughts and despair.

>>6572
All of this will be happening shortly, but it certainly won't be because of anything you did. And if you think you have the power to bend civilization and reality to your will, I encourage you to find a tall building to jump off of and test how well your power works on gravity.

>>5035
Forgiveness in the mind of another.

Freedom. Or liberty. Or whatever the thing I want is called because the politically minded keep stealing words from me. I want to be able to do what I want, when I want, without any dumbass pearl clutching retards getting in my way.

I've forgotten

Either the courage to talk to her, or for her to talk to me, after ten years of us never speaking.

I want to hold someone, or to be held by someone

>>5035
I desire a better world than this and also a cold box in the ground.

>>7059
I was held and held someone yesterday. When you have it, you don't want it anymore.

What I'm trying to say: don't pine for something like that. It's too insignificant.

Maybe you want to be held by a certain person--that's a different story.

Then again, I want to be held by God.

You know?
Most people wish to fuck.
That is not very primary though.

If the soul is not real, are you dreaming now?
Came reality or dream first?
If dream came first, maybe you wake up after death.
In any way, we are here together.
We are in this reality because it is pleasant.
Love life, live long.

Nothing in the bible is chronological order.
That is fine.
Perhaps the first christian ruler flip bibles pages and refused to believe that central part. He read through it again.
Even that is history.
Why else did he convert?

I want to be a demon and feed off all the negative human emotional excess. I want to fuel human beings into a madness and cause them to abandon all reason killing themselves and others or just feed on their cries. I want them to experience things like I did and become consumed by the overwhelming negative. I don't want to be human anymore.

I desire to have a group of friends that have similar interests as me. That I can hang out with and do stuff with. That respect me as a person and care about me. A group of friends I can comfortably be myself around without feeling awkward or self conscious. I want this so the neverending loneliness stops. So I guess what I should rather say is that I want my loneliness to go away

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I want the dragonball >>5035

>>5035
I want to finish college and have people to talk to in real life... I have one on-line friend, who is ocean away. I would visit this person, but I have not the money to do so.

I did not think it would be so hard to do well in college as well as to make friends.

I know it is only a simple yearning, but I really have not had friends since early elementary school, when I moved away. I lived like a NEET, only going to school, during that time. College is no different, really. I guess there is work in the future (I should probably have a job by now, I am just too lazy to be bothered applying, though).

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>>7280
I'll trade you my Dragonball for a spray bottle of Shaggy-No-More :3

i desire to lead with my heart but i'm afraid i'll end up in a place so beyond what anyone could have possibly imagined as weird that i'm bound to start doubting myself and asking if i might have fucked up.

>>7281
if I've been in the same situation you are sitting and just yearning for a more meaningful life and not going out or really talking to anyone outside of online spaces what you need to do is try and find a space where you feel comfortable and realise that the friends you first make don't need to be the people you are with forever it's all about the effort you put in

>>7293
I should update you...

I tried what you have said after reading your reply. Despite going to a local restaurant and two libraries several times each week, I return empty-handed. Not to say that your advice was poor, as it was not, but I try talking to people and go often unnoticed. Usually a disinterested conversation with only one or two words in return to anything that I say.

There are clubs, of course, but the clubs I want to join meet during the times I have late evening classes, so I would be paying money for a resource that I cannot utilize.

Maybe things will be better in the summer, when I will be taking less classes.

I am also fairly disconnected with popular culture and am unaware of what music, television or film is popular these days, so that might be shooting myself in the foot, but surely people are interested in other things.

Sorry if I sound very disconnected. I hear this a lot on other websites, so it is probably apparent when I speak.

endless fortune! money can buy anything.

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>>5490
But actual nothing. As in "nothingness".

>>6537
Aren't we all?

>>7354
Or at the very least, rent it.

>>5035
I want validation. As pretty much any human, I want to be recognized by the things that I do. As a creator, as a maker.
But for that I'd have to get rid of my executive disfunction and move my ass. Too bad that even getting out of bed is exhausting.

>>7364
Go back to lainchan nigga. Why is everyone there so obsessed with 'recognition'?

It's not what I want and I don't think that in your heart of hearts it's what you want. Friendship, maybe, recognition, validation? The MTST useless shit tbh. Even ecstasy is better than that and ecstasy is very far from how far it goes.

>>7366
People who need outside validation are gay. True acceptance comes from within.

Absolute peak omnipotence the power to make anything I want to happen without restriction, wven logic won't hold me back, for of I were to do anything self negating or two things mutually exclusive to one another, I'd create separate areas of reality where every unique instance is accounted for, and my consciousness can transfer between them, like switching feeds on a camera.

>>7366
Transactional Analysis has a theory on something called stroke, which is the most basic unit of social interction. In the society we're forced to live in (unless you're going Weaver family), being acknowledged for good or worse are crucial to mental health.

>>7367
Isn't that solipsistic?

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>>5035

>>5035
to from the beginning have be known that desire was acceptable to have. that to satisfy ones own desire was required to experience this thing called "joy".

why would that be hidden from anyone?

>>7385
Remember when we made this guy into a white nationalist mascot?